I’ve been wondering over the
last few days what the best approach is for a blog this year. Do I read through
everything written over recent days and consolidate the highlights into an
essay with a few additional reflections; or do I just continue to key in daily
scribbles? Do I pick a topic and let rip on that for five hundred words or do I
just sporadically post progress reports.
It’s only the first week of the year;
besides making a few paperbacks by hand, uploading a video and writing a ‘to
do’ list I’ve not done much yet. Hopefully when I get into workshop mode
there’ll be more on my mind.
I once heard poet Kate Fox say she doesn’t
trust metaphor. I often wonder if I’m really a poet at all. Much of the time I
just want to rant or record an experience in language as plain as possible.
Marking time for my own peace of mind is often enough. I don’t ever try to
force the use of metaphor. I have two poems, each around two decades old, where
I’ve set myself the task of producing verse with multiple connections and found
that although successful – published in respectable magazines and later housed
in my debut collection – I found the approach to be somewhat false. I prefer
the unexpected passage found in a notebook that startles me and demands a
redrafting at the computer – I discover poems within my prose, that’s why I scribble
so many automatic journal entries.
I don’t think you can ever have too many
notebooks. To my surprise at the latest count I realise I have six on the go
this year already. The day starts with morning pages on unruled A4 sheets –
much of this text came from what I wrote in bed today. Sometimes the pages record
dreams, workshop plans and prose-poems, sometimes I just whinge in order to
clear my head before the day starts proper. I’m making my own morning pages
notebooks from A3 copier paper folded in half and stitched with needle and
thread. I don’t want a repeat of last year with stray pages strewn about the
bedroom floor for months on end.
There’s a school exercise book style jotter
for field notes and flashes of inspiration, preliminary journal entries on
buses and other fragments.
This year there’s an A4 lined hardback for
random free verse compositions – it’s been so long since I actually drafted in
lines rather than paragraphs and I need to get back in the habit of doing so.
I’ll jot down workshops plans in this book as well.
The A4 lined diary format I’ve been using
for over ten years was becoming uncomfortable on the eye during typing
sessions; my ‘regular journal’ entries are now reduced to a single A5 page a
day in a chunky Paperchase diary – purchased on my third visit to the shop
after trawling the internet and weighing up my options for a fortnight.
I find it useful to keep a work-log in an
imitation A5 moleskine – black for three years running – to keep track of my
workshop outcomes, networking, online activity; and gig set-lists in the back
so I don’t repeat work upon return to a venue.
The last little book I take a pen to is, for
want of a better term, a ‘Gratitude Book’. It’s a new addition to my routine.
Anyone who has read my published output knows I tend to dwell on the dark side
of life, so I’ve started to record a few positive reflections from my day.
Thanks for a nice comment from a friend on Facebook, gratitude for a lovely
meal or work opportunity, a few words on how pleased I am that a meeting went
well or just noting the weather being pleasantly mild. ‘Steve’s Little Book of
Joy’ would probably do no good do for my reputation as a grim existential
diarist and performance ranter, but it’s nice as something to look back upon as
a reminder that the sun does actually shine once in a while.
And on that note I’ll cut it and finish another
hand-made copy of There Are Easier
Ways of Living Than Bleeding to Death. Made to
order for £7.00 including postage, should anyone be curious.
Happy New Year. Keep it going.
Steve
Urwin, Moorside
Saturday 5th January 2013
Tuesday 1st January 2013
First day of the year, blue
skies and dry pavements, first walk in the woods for ages. Black Metal Venom
sweatshirt, big boots. The river trail was pretty muddy but didn’t spoil my
enjoyment. Took my camera but I’m no photographer – all my colours will soon be
black and white. I walked for a couple of
hours. It was good to be outside after all the lethargy of the last week and
calorific excess.
This year I want to say Yes
to a healthier lifestyle; yes to creative opportunities. Yes to slim volumes of
poems read in single sittings. Yes to walks in the woods, yes to reading more
memoirs, autobiography and journals. Last year was pretty full-on. In 2013 I
want things to do things a little differently. I have good vibes about the
coming months though. Yes to community arts activity, Yes to memorizing my
words for public performance. Yes to less is more. This new diary is proof of
that. 9.55pm.
Wednesday 2nd January 2013
I thought some lingering
paperwork from last year would only take till lunchtime. But you know what
thought did – and when he looked he had. It was twenty past four when I got the
envelope weighed at the post office. At least I had an easy evening. Read some
poetic theory that I took with a pinch of salt and other clichés then me and
Jenni played The Cube. Some of the games are easy, some require the skills of a
juggler. Some involve balancing cylinders and little foam balls, some require
hand eye coordination I never even had as a kid, much less a decrept
forty-something with arthritic fingers and spectacles. Jenni got up to the
final £250,000 game with six lives intact , but the little red ball she had to fire through a hoop into the cube
just wouldn’t hit the target. I bet she nails it next time though. After this
entry it’s a DVD till bedtime. Maybe The Devil’s Carnival, maybe Stephen Fry in
America.
Decisions, decisions… 9.03pm.
Thursday 3rd January 2012
Incurred my first library
fine of 2013 this morning. Was too busy to return the five overdue titles
yesterday. But on the bright side they let me have Phillip Coggan’s Paper
Promises reissued. It’s a book about money, debt and the new World Order that I
never got round to reading during a thirty-week loan in the year of the
apocalypse that never was. Funny! Tonight has been a nostalgia trip for me.
Listened to Sweatbox by Rollins. Heard this album as a triple vinyl set in
1989, my first encounter with ‘spoken word’. Hank can turn on a dime from
hilarious to painfully poignant. The story about the old woman in the grocery
store still brings a lump to my throat. I also listened to BBC radio session
versions of songs by The Mission. Then decided to glue up a copy of my early
book ‘There Are Easier Ways
of Living Than Bleeding to Death’. Jenni isn’t due back till after midnight.
Who knows what papercraft shenanigans I get up to before then. 10 22pm.
Friday 4th January 2013
Didn’t go to bed till quarter
past three this morning after more book building, so it was nice to have a lie
in. Needle and thread binding this afternoon then some video editing. Really
mild weather today. Would have been nice to get out on the bike for a while but
I feel I ought to be concentrating on work-related activity. Listened to songs
by The Damned, Sinead O’Connor and
Jarboe. I want to listen to stuff I liked in my twenties. A big Swans fan back
then, I miss the intensity of their dark music. Jenni came over about half seven.
She brought me a bottle of ginger beer. I don’t have much to write down the s
evening. I read a bit more of Peter Sampson’s Writing Poems and made a big
to-do list for the coming weeks. Won’t
be long before I’m really busy again and looking for pockets of time to keep on
top of domesticity and stop myself from crashing out. Oh well… 9.21pm.
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